This poem was shared by someone who has lived with PNES. Her first seizure occurred with no warning while she was at work. After an initial diagnosis of epilepsy, rounds of medicine, and realizing that medication was not stopping the seizures, she was diagnosed with PNES. A traumatic event that occurred to her decades before was the trigger for her PNES; while she thought that she had dealt with that event and its memory years earlier, when the seizures started coming, she realized that she had more work to do. She recently completed treatment for PNES (a course of prolonged exposure therapy) and is seizure-free for the longest stretch of time since her journey with PNES began. She offered to share her poem on this blog; in it, she describes the impact this initial trauma had on her and how she embarked on her search for recovery.